Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Wokeup in the morning, finished the breakfast and started with Pitaji for the train. Train was on time. Half-an-hour late is called on time in our place. Fathers some more friends came. Had tea and catched the train. Abhay was waiting for me in Bettiah. Abhay is my cousin but we are together from class 5th. And the train was running on the wheels of time.
The first year in college was not remarkable for me. At first I faced lots of problems physical as well as mental. But afterwards, everything became normal. There were three students expect me in my room. But one by one everyone left the college. Someone told this college worst, some one told another college is better and someone by other reason. But I did not have any other reason. I was not able to return back. So, finally decided to struggle and will see what happens. I always have believed on time. I do not now why I assume that although there might not be any good thing but nothing can be bad with me. And till now I have found myself lucky in this way. S, I decided to find my own way to proceed towards this new path. The very first thing I found that although teachers were not of that much good quality, but they are following the same syllabus and good books. If I listen to them then there is no need to study any thing extra. As I am a son of a teacher, so I do have a different respect for teacher. I used to listen them and respect them. Many of students thought that this is “Chaploosi”, but who cares for them? Many of teacher (sirs as well as madams) started liking me. The same thing was continued all the four years. Many of the ladies teachers were younger than me. Anyway… completed the 1st year with a average good CGPA 8.7
Today I am thinking to go for a big shopping. Yes, shopping for vegetables. Although Narkatiaganj is a very small place but all the things for primary needs are being sold here. Need not to buy vegetables in “Paw” (means 250 grams) like
Now have to start for packing. This is not the first time. I have to travel this much long once every 5-6 months. But this time I was going college not to study & stay there, but have to get issued certificates as have to join. The feeling was similar to that as it was July 23rd, before four years. I was going to be admitted in the same college. There is a normal saying “Samay se pahle aur bhagya se jyada kuchh nahi milta “ (nothing you can get earier than time and more than fate). I do have a proof with me. After completing ISc in 1997, I was continuously trying for IITJEE. I don’t think that the system is faulty for this. Either this was my fault or it was beyond my capability as after trying hard continuously for 5 years, I could not get into any of these IITs. People surrounding me were asking what happened? Something happened or not? Where were you wrong? Oh! It’s a matter of bad luck !! etc etc… Although I was getting penetrated by comments also, sympathies were bitterer. I was not able to cry too.
Finally I decided to leave so called Engineering field. I thought that this is beyond my capability. I started planning for civil services. That is my luck that from from the same year, CBSE stated its “AIEEE”. Although I do not use to fill any form other than IITs, I filled this form after seeing its popularity. But, either I was more relaxed towards IIT results or was not much fascinated towards the colleges in AIEEE, I did not even see the syllabus and exam paper’s format. After going through more than 50% of the question paper, I got to know that there is negative marking also. Anyway, I could not do anything more. I was expecting a very poor rank in this. But, I do not know how, got a ok type of rank. And also call for counseling. At that time I was in